Will to Be More

One can always will to be more than that which one’s will is willing to be currently…

For one can be more honest than the honesty one currently wills…

One can be more patient, more loving, more accepting, more empathetic than one is currently willing to be…

Although one can will to be more, one must be careful the intention behind one’s will to be more…because the intention behind the will determines the fruit the will’s willingness will bear…

For one will have vastly different outcomes based on if one wills for appearance or for substance…

Willing for appearance is to will to be seen, it is a show, a mask, a facade, in which one develops a nice mask to wear but the wearer behind the mask is nothing like the image it portrays…and what an empty and unfulfilled existence that is…what a confusing, blurred, and division bearing tension such a state produces…

Willing for substance on the other hand, is to will that which one is willing into being to becoming to Be…it is a presence, a manifestation, a way of life, immune to recognition or acknowledgement, for one is being what one is being solely to Be…only under the watchful I of God hunger to be seen…

Willing the substance of patience, honesty, love into being expands one’s inner existence, it elevates and evolves one’s presence…because an elevated level of patience, honesty, and love has been extracted and unified with one’s state of being…

If the intention of the will is for show rather than for being, it will be a hinderance to one’s growth and self-discovery…but even then one can transform the hinderance into something empowering, if one wills to…for nothing has to serve one in a specific or precise manner, as it is up to one’s will how one will be served by anything one faces…for an obstacle can serve to stop one’s progress if one wills it to, or an obstacle can serve to help one strengthen their will to progress to higher heights, if one wills to…

As the will to show oneself as something one is not willing to be substantially will entrap and imprison one within the confines of the external world if the intention of the will is for the world and not for the spirit within oneself…if the will is trying to build the Me rather than discover the I…

Using one’s energy to feed the world and be fed on by it, by willingly diluting oneself of authenticity for publicity, for acceptance by those that know one not…

Even in one’s own dilution through one’s will’s intention, one can actually find revelation about one within oneself…one will come to see that the person one has willed into form is a pseudo-self…for one wills to fool others to see one as something that one does not see oneself to be, for one is unwilling to be that which one wills others to see one as…for one values others respect over one’s own…for one is willing to invest all of one’s energy to gain respect from others while not gaining any for oneself…

What good is having the masses admire one, when one has no admiration for one’s being? what good is it to be told that one is beautiful by the world, when one is unable to see that beauty for oneself?

Therefore, when one is willing more than the will one is currently willing, one must be careful the intention and direction the will is taking one…

For willing more can liberate or incarcerate…

It can evolve or devolve one…

It can help one find the true self or get lost in the deception of one’s own lies…

If one seeks the truth and is willing to be more conscious and open about the intentions behind the willingness to will, within that intention is the revelation of the stranger that has been hidden deep within oneself…and it is through being honest about the intention of the will where one will come to witness that stranger…

It is in this revelation where one will witness the willingness one is willing; they will come to see if they will to be a more of an elevated being within —which is unseen before the world— or if they are only willing to be seen by the world as such but with no intention of actually being…

This is where willing to be more honest will reveal the intention behind one’s willingness, in order to see why it is, one is doing that which one is doing…this will open up choices one did not know one had, this will give one the opportunity to pave new paths one did not know that one could forge…

For one will see, if one becomes the willer, one can will beyond that which one has formed one’s being to be in the present…one can will beyond all that which one has believed one to be, and one can will beyond that which one thought that one was destined to become…

This will shatter the pseudo-self (the Me) that one has thought one to be, and will see it as merely a shell one was trapped in, but had been misled to believe that it was actually one…stepping out of the shell, one will have a realization of rebirth…frightened and yet empowered…confused yet found…unsure yet certain…without a path and yet with direction…without an identity but with a purpose…no definition but with meaning…unavailable but present…

One will see that the pseudo-self was kept intact by one’s own willingness to believe its falsities, even though deep down one knew it was not truly one…but one continued believing by convincing oneself that is who one is….and it is precisely in that belief that the pseudo-self-kept itself intact by providing one the smokey image of comfort to continue convincing self one that what is not to be…

The uncomfortable part is to be honest about the will of one’s intentions…to see that one is willing a certain thing because one is jealous or envious, because one is scared or insecure, because one feels less then or has low self-esteem…but that is okay…ignoring it and burying it is not…

Being honest about one’s intentions of will gives one the ability to redirect those intentions…if one is willing to look at the stranger within, one is then able to see that stranger, work accordingly with that stranger, to get closer to that stranger, and realize that stranger—like the effect the summer Sun produces on a hot day upon the asphalt, in which the road ahead appears to have a pool of water for one, but when arrives it is not—has only been a mirage…

If the will is willing, one can cease to be that which one is, and become that which one is not…because in essence, that which one has come to believe to be one’s nature is one’s adopted forms of habit that has been so deeply embedded within one, that one is unable to see it for what it is…

And in that sight, one will also come to see that one has the ability with free-will to rewrite one’s unconscious habits that one mistook as one’s nature….